06/04/2024
As I lay here wide awoke, wondering why I’m woke. It’s the stress and weight of all things, that keep my mind racing, even when I sleep my mind is overthinking about what I could have done differently in the situations of the day. Am I ok with what happen on this day, then I come to a realization that nothing has happen on this day that would keep me woke. It’s just my mental being tested by me. I think am I worthy to be saved, am I worthy of all the love I’m shown on a daily basis. Is it all love or is it what I can do for that person, I’m a father a provider, is that enough for the people that depend on me daily, no one can really relate to the way this world has dropped all this weight on my shoulders, I smile but I’m not ok, I laugh but I’m not ok, I uplift others but I’m not ok, I go on with my day , but I’m not ok, men’s mental health has been perceived as weakness, yet we continue on, because with out us things will fold.
Just understand we are not ok!!
