05/26/2023
Oh yeah!!!
Hello friends! Its been a long time :( If you could ask for anything, what would it be? Ok, aside from $$$ I guess we'd all ask for that... lol!
For me, it'd be to go back time... I wish I could go back and tell myself not to give up on my dreams no matter how crappy things were going in life. I was frustrated with business and the backstabbers who copied every part that I worked so hard to make, and gave every lie they could to justify it in their minds or to everyone else... Frustrated with life and dealing with a failing marriage then eventually a divorce.... I was just wanting to bury my head in the dirt and not have to worry about it all anymore... sigh.
That wasn't what i worked so hard for though for OVER 10 YEARS... I had let ComposiMo down... I let all of you down. I let my best friends down who did nothing but help me get there (Sorry Jay)... I am so sorry from the bottom of my heart... I know in the process I've lost some amazing friends. I've lost the trust of a lot of people... People who were only trying to help, and i was SO caught up in my own "tragedy", and only thinking selfishly, that i couldn't see them holding their hand out to help me get back up. I let them down. I let myself down. How could i let something so trivial get in the way of all of this awesomeness that had been developed. I should have talked more to my friends... i should have opened up more to y'all. No one knew what the hell was going on, only that i went radio-silent, and so i must be an a-hole, or up to no good, or scamming people... whatever the insults were. A lot of these insults came from my "competitors"... people who all used to actually be my friends. My friends that went and copied my parts for their own financial gain, and screwed all of you over in the process... a lot of things were even sold as mine, but they just made the parts themselves (no, i never "forgot" to engrave my logo in anything... SMFH)
But anyway, this isn't about that. I've found forgiveness in my heart for a lot of that with them. It does bother me that any human would do that to another human, especially in this small of a "family market"... but what's in the past is the past, and maybe.... just maybe they won't let themselves do it again. I guess we will see......
For years my life was in turmoil... I had the best opportunity i could have asked for open up for me, working with the always awesome guys at Mnnthbx... they invited me in like family. I didn't deserve that. They also didn't deserve my life going downhill while I was there, and my mental state going downhill... which of course caused the whole thing to go downhill... Greg, Kev, Grant... I'm truly sorry.
I briefly moved back to North Carolina to try to get things back to 'normal', and get a job... but wound up back in Knoxville for a variety of reasons. For the last 3-ish years, I've been working full-time at an automotive performance shop doing fabrication, cnc machining, making parts for them, and lots of car stuff... Its neat, but it isn't ComposiMo... it isn't my baby... it isn't my dream. I have been quietly keeping things sorta alive as far as ComposiMo is concerned... making small batches of parts here and there... Sadly I've also had issues with the website... it's old... I'm in the process of upgrading to Shopify (at least i hope its an upgrade)... the old site would sell things all the time that were marked as out of stock, take an order but not show it on my order screen, etc.
Anyway, I still have the full-time job, but I am slowly getting back on top of making more parts and trying to get ComposiMo going again... My life has taken quite the turn in the last couple of years... i married an amazing woman who is fully supportive of me and my little dream here, and wants nothing more than to see it come back to life... My head is back on my shoulders square again... my mind is in a wonderful place.
I also couldn't believe the amount of encouragement that I've received from a few very special individuals... even suggesting gofundme pages and stuff because they felt that there were enough people out there that may want me back that they'd donate for me to get equipment and back into a shop... lol! I mean, it really was heart-warming to hear... I definitely know that's not the case with everyone out there, but they have given me hope that at least some of the world out there still appreciates me, my parts, and what i've done in the past... and that y'all would like to see some OG parts, and even some new ones... and OG parts refreshed with some new style. I want to get back on the drawing board with new exciting parts and bikes also.
Its going to take some time, but I'm trying to build steps to climb out of the massive hole i've dug for myself. I appreciate every single one of you... customers, friends, family, everyone... Without you, ComposiMo would never have been what it was in the first place. I miss it, i Miss all of you! Y'all believed in this little shop back then, and i let it and you down.... I do not want to allow that to happen again. Its going to take time... I don't have a physical shop, i have less than 1/10th of my tools and equipment, I'm shipping stuff out of my house, and I'm scraping together every penny i can find to buy material to get more parts in the pipeline... And its coming together slowly but surely :)
Bottom line: ComposiMo is coming back :) ... it may (will) be slow... i can only do so much after hours and without a shop, but bear with me :) I am working to make everything back to good again... and Lord willing, i'll find myself back in my own shop, and churning out parts and cool stuff like never before.
Once again, I'm sorry to all of you... I hope you are all willing to give me a second chance. Thanks for reading all of this!
