05/15/2024
This winter just gone, something deeply magical unfolded for me, and as Iām only just now recognizing the extent of that, I want to share it with you. š¤
Across the winter, I took a journey into the depths of myself. In many respects, I passed through the eye of the needle, and despite what I found in there, I didnāt back down!
I faced all of the traumas I found and I kept moving forward; looking at them, cataloging them, making them (and all of my journey in life since accruing them), make sense!
I laughed, I wept, I froze, I danced, I played, I worked⦠I completely lived my life to the absolute depth of what was possible.
What I have found is, ultimately, everything Iāve been looking for in this world, and as difficult as it may be, Iāll try and put that into words for you as best I can.
Firstly, I found Myself.
Such a statement means different things for different people, but for me, it now means that no matter where I look or what I look at, I see Myself contained within the essence of it, and it within Me!
Such a connection to the world around me, even without anything else to compliment it, is beyond beautiful! I WANT to care for myself now, not from obligation, but because I see the same things that the world is made of (which I love deeply and want to care for), in me!
Secondly, I have found the outward expression which makes me happiest. I am working towards my degree in Mechanical Engineering Design so that I can build fantastic new machines to help enrich the experience of all beings on this planet.
Thirdly, I donāt feel a need to hide, from either myself or anything else. Thereās no pretenses in me, no needing to be anything other than who and what I am. This life Iām living is MY version of the dream, not yours, not my brotherās, not my teacherās, not my motherās⦠mine! And it can look however I want it to look in order for me to live a happy and fulfilled life.
Next, me living a happy and fulfilled life means seeing those around me happy and fulfilled.
If I can contribute to that in any way, I will!
Lastly, I feel gratitude for everything. Itās all a lovely dance, and Iām delighted to be on this dance floor called life.
I recognize powerfully that none of this means I donāt lose my temper, donāt not feel fear, donāt get tired or upset⦠I recognize powerfully that it means thatās all a part of the dance and Iām so thrilled to be experiencing all of it.
I chose love this last winter, and that has made all the difference! ššµš„